So i feel that i'm obligated to make an entry that's not a survey or song lyrics. This is my attempt at that. Here's the problem, i dont have much to update about when things are going good. Sure, i still have my problems, but they are problems that aren't so bad. It's just so much easier to turn to my journal when life is total crap. Ah well. Intros suck. here goes.

School starts next week, and i'm very excited about it. this is a chance to start over. I've got a goal too, and it's not to make any friends. i dont want to have anything to do with any of the people i have classes with. it's anti-high school. my classes are pretty neat too. blah blah, i dont even know why i'm writing this.

I really miss kyle. he and i just connect so well. we need to hang out, and we need to do it soon. Come back man!

I've left the house once since saturday. I'm becoming quite the shut in. That will change once i get the car back. oh man.

My birthday is on sunday. if it was a repeat of last year i'd kill myself. It wont be though, i'm planning on doing nothing. In fact, that will be nice. I'm so sick of my birthday because bad things always go down. I wis it was just another day, but i seem to be cursed. Maybe it'll change this year now that i'll be legal.

In the last day or so i've decided that i shouldn't bother with mason anymore. he doesn't give a rat's ass about me, and he's a big backstabber. He calls me "gross" behind my back. I've been nothing but a loyal friend to him, but if he's gonna be an asshole to me all the time, then forget it.

As far as girls go, i'm doin alright. i've got this one issue, but ya know what, i'm not gonna let that spoil it for me. i dunno... yeah.

things are fine. I've decided i want to transfer to an east coast school in a couple years. preferably Boston College, UMASS, or columbia. yeah.

s'it.